My most inner thoughts
These few days, or should I say that I realised this on Sat, 9 April, that everytime I like a gal n when I try to woo her, I always seem to give her unnecessary pressure, unnecessary headache and the best part is that I can make her angry too. Well, I really dunno y lor but maybe iz cause due to the reason that the more I try to show my care and concern, the more it seems like I am trying to suffocate her like that. Really ah... really despair liao oso dunno why lah but then hor, i really really really know wat I should do but, talk is cheap.
Never for once did I ever succeed in winning the gal's heart. I really wonder, did i not put in enough effort, or, is it that I should not woo more than one from the same group? Friends told me that I was barking up the wrong tree and even my closest friend told me that I should give up long time ago. Guess that it is human to be stubborn and humans will only learnt the hard way no matter wat.
It is never a good idea to really like someone alot before u start anything with her. This, i can sae that I did not learn. Of all the gals I liked, I guess that she has got to be the one that i really like and till now, though I have told all my close friends that I have already given up, but, in actual fact, I am still asking myself, have I or do I wan to put myself though more mental torture as it is already clear that I am not going to win her heart and she has stated it clearly via hints and clues last time.
But, due to past experiences of wooing someone, I stick to being more perserve and determined in waiting and being there for her though it was via phone, sms, MSN and more recently Friendster. Well, I guess that she is right in not wanting to go out with me so that I will not feel more hurt. I am really truely sorry for my attitude towards her when I asked for the last time whether I stood any chance. Sorry I am but, never will I tell her this apology cause it has already passed and now that we are back to normal, I should be glad.
Glad that things have returned to normal, normal for friendship kind of things which wat I should be happy about and I am not going to wish for anything more. It is no use wishing for something so much only to see your most beloved dream come crashing down back to earth cause, reality is always the opposite of dreams, hopes, wishes.
Haiz... Guess after these few yrs, I have really learnt alot of things about gals and their behaviour though I do not dare to say that I know alot, but, at least it is enough to let me know that guys and gals behave in a total different way in every single little thing and they oso think differently.
Time for me to control myself to stop liking someone for now to spare myself another rejection heartache. Not a good feeling and though I do not like the feeling of being rejected, at least it beats being in a wrong relationship. Gals... generally see bad guys as The One, and, after being hurt by them, they suddenly "wake up" and realise that there are actually a good guy near them all these while and this really leads me to agree to the phrase, "Nice Guys Finish Last".
Kk, in time to come, when God feels that it is time for me to be in a relationship, he will arrange for it to happen. For now, with no car, no money, it is really not the right time for me to be in one too cause I can even support myself totally liao so how am I expected to care for another person financially...... Love, care and concern, anyone can give, but, finance-wise, I can say that I am still incapable of it.
Never for once did I ever succeed in winning the gal's heart. I really wonder, did i not put in enough effort, or, is it that I should not woo more than one from the same group? Friends told me that I was barking up the wrong tree and even my closest friend told me that I should give up long time ago. Guess that it is human to be stubborn and humans will only learnt the hard way no matter wat.
It is never a good idea to really like someone alot before u start anything with her. This, i can sae that I did not learn. Of all the gals I liked, I guess that she has got to be the one that i really like and till now, though I have told all my close friends that I have already given up, but, in actual fact, I am still asking myself, have I or do I wan to put myself though more mental torture as it is already clear that I am not going to win her heart and she has stated it clearly via hints and clues last time.
But, due to past experiences of wooing someone, I stick to being more perserve and determined in waiting and being there for her though it was via phone, sms, MSN and more recently Friendster. Well, I guess that she is right in not wanting to go out with me so that I will not feel more hurt. I am really truely sorry for my attitude towards her when I asked for the last time whether I stood any chance. Sorry I am but, never will I tell her this apology cause it has already passed and now that we are back to normal, I should be glad.
Glad that things have returned to normal, normal for friendship kind of things which wat I should be happy about and I am not going to wish for anything more. It is no use wishing for something so much only to see your most beloved dream come crashing down back to earth cause, reality is always the opposite of dreams, hopes, wishes.
Haiz... Guess after these few yrs, I have really learnt alot of things about gals and their behaviour though I do not dare to say that I know alot, but, at least it is enough to let me know that guys and gals behave in a total different way in every single little thing and they oso think differently.
Time for me to control myself to stop liking someone for now to spare myself another rejection heartache. Not a good feeling and though I do not like the feeling of being rejected, at least it beats being in a wrong relationship. Gals... generally see bad guys as The One, and, after being hurt by them, they suddenly "wake up" and realise that there are actually a good guy near them all these while and this really leads me to agree to the phrase, "Nice Guys Finish Last".
Kk, in time to come, when God feels that it is time for me to be in a relationship, he will arrange for it to happen. For now, with no car, no money, it is really not the right time for me to be in one too cause I can even support myself totally liao so how am I expected to care for another person financially...... Love, care and concern, anyone can give, but, finance-wise, I can say that I am still incapable of it.
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