Jan 17 2006
I really wonder, so many contacts in MSN, Friendster and in my HP, but, how many am I REALLY in contact with? A handful? Maybe the most is the toes n fingers on my body ba. A total of 20, maybe even lesser.
Someting really amuses me alot. Since sec sch, everyone thinks I have countless of female friends. ya right. Maybe juz a couple few more than the regular guy, one or 2 better female friends that's all. Nothing to be envious of.
More often than not, it is those who used to have a romantic relationship who envy me. Then I should be envious of them being in a special relationship with someone before then cause I am the couple few who have never been in one. Who should be envious of who then? The jury and panel of judges are still out there debating.
Why do some people not reply back to my sms? I have given up finding excuses for them not replying back to me. I feel that I am juz wasting my sms.
One more thing. Everytime I like a gal, I seem to kanna rejected. Izzit due to the actions n words I said? Too much she feel pressurized. Too few she dun feel anything. I juz cant find the way to IMPACT the heart of the gal. Destinated for a life of loneliness? Damn shit. Iz the onli thing that's eluding me all this while in my life.
What the heck lah. Still young. Haven 22 yet. Let's c wat life has in store for me. Will Fate help me out cause I have already done my best or does It feel that I am not doing enough? No one has the ans to it and I have already bored my closest Malay friend and closest poly friend ALMOST to death with this topic.
Guess iz time for me to clam up a little on this since I was 21 last year and am going on to 22 this year. OMG! Iz oso the day I am going to ORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woho! Get back pink IC, FREEDOM.
Someting really amuses me alot. Since sec sch, everyone thinks I have countless of female friends. ya right. Maybe juz a couple few more than the regular guy, one or 2 better female friends that's all. Nothing to be envious of.
More often than not, it is those who used to have a romantic relationship who envy me. Then I should be envious of them being in a special relationship with someone before then cause I am the couple few who have never been in one. Who should be envious of who then? The jury and panel of judges are still out there debating.
Why do some people not reply back to my sms? I have given up finding excuses for them not replying back to me. I feel that I am juz wasting my sms.
One more thing. Everytime I like a gal, I seem to kanna rejected. Izzit due to the actions n words I said? Too much she feel pressurized. Too few she dun feel anything. I juz cant find the way to IMPACT the heart of the gal. Destinated for a life of loneliness? Damn shit. Iz the onli thing that's eluding me all this while in my life.
What the heck lah. Still young. Haven 22 yet. Let's c wat life has in store for me. Will Fate help me out cause I have already done my best or does It feel that I am not doing enough? No one has the ans to it and I have already bored my closest Malay friend and closest poly friend ALMOST to death with this topic.
Guess iz time for me to clam up a little on this since I was 21 last year and am going on to 22 this year. OMG! Iz oso the day I am going to ORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woho! Get back pink IC, FREEDOM.
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