June 29, 2006
This will be my "triple one" entry, aka 111st entry.
Dunno wat 2 write. Juz write anything on my mind currently. Alot of thoughts on my mind when I am going to ORD in 3 months time. Gonna journey into another trip in my life as I will be entering the workforce soon, that is, if I find a job right after completing my national service.
When life was much simpler, or was I more naive and blur to the complexities of the human mind in this world back then in secondary school, I made lots of friends and every turn and corner in my neighourhood, I could somehow see a schoolmate of mine whom I can term as "friend." Now, being more wiser to the craftiness of some people around me, it seems harder to make friends with a sincere mind.
Recently, some friends just LOVE asking me this question: "Hey Kenny, why dun u go find someone and get into a relationship with?"
Well, does it not occur to people that, yes, I know many female friends but, it does not translate into higher chances if I am NOT their type and if they are not the kind of girl that I am searching for. Like a clinche saying goes, "it takes two hands to clap."
Close friends say that I am trying to be a perfect guy too much and I should just be myself. Maybe it is just in me. If I want to be attached, I might as well be the perfect or, as perfect as possible else how does the other person feel man if she is forking all out, hopefully so lah right. Be sincere and give all and if things dun work out, at least I am not guilty of not trying hard enough and for pulling back on certain stuff. Maybe naive thinking cause I have not been in a BGR before so all I know is the hearsay from friends and just read-ups from magazines, webbies and shows. Maybe it all boils down to improvising and being spontaneous at the right times and doing the right thing at the right time. I could be wrong. Only those who are in a relationship before will know the correct answer to give for each situation.
So many thoughts but to type all of them out, I will need maybe a full day, 24 hours, to type all of them out.
Have not been feeling good these few days. Hopefully will get back the style just before I enlist but with the maturity that I process now.
Dunno wat 2 write. Juz write anything on my mind currently. Alot of thoughts on my mind when I am going to ORD in 3 months time. Gonna journey into another trip in my life as I will be entering the workforce soon, that is, if I find a job right after completing my national service.
When life was much simpler, or was I more naive and blur to the complexities of the human mind in this world back then in secondary school, I made lots of friends and every turn and corner in my neighourhood, I could somehow see a schoolmate of mine whom I can term as "friend." Now, being more wiser to the craftiness of some people around me, it seems harder to make friends with a sincere mind.
Recently, some friends just LOVE asking me this question: "Hey Kenny, why dun u go find someone and get into a relationship with?"
Well, does it not occur to people that, yes, I know many female friends but, it does not translate into higher chances if I am NOT their type and if they are not the kind of girl that I am searching for. Like a clinche saying goes, "it takes two hands to clap."
Close friends say that I am trying to be a perfect guy too much and I should just be myself. Maybe it is just in me. If I want to be attached, I might as well be the perfect or, as perfect as possible else how does the other person feel man if she is forking all out, hopefully so lah right. Be sincere and give all and if things dun work out, at least I am not guilty of not trying hard enough and for pulling back on certain stuff. Maybe naive thinking cause I have not been in a BGR before so all I know is the hearsay from friends and just read-ups from magazines, webbies and shows. Maybe it all boils down to improvising and being spontaneous at the right times and doing the right thing at the right time. I could be wrong. Only those who are in a relationship before will know the correct answer to give for each situation.
So many thoughts but to type all of them out, I will need maybe a full day, 24 hours, to type all of them out.
Have not been feeling good these few days. Hopefully will get back the style just before I enlist but with the maturity that I process now.
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