To seek mental help or not?
Been feeling down recently due to many events happening in the office and my personal life has not been smooth sailing no matter how much I try to make things as nice as possible.
Things are the same in my family, being normal and nothing much of any changes. For the office, though my best closest colleague cum friend has assured me when I sent her sms a few nights ago that she was not avoiding me, but, from the way she did not reply to my sms normally and do not pick up my calls when I called her, it just seems contradicting. Am I thinking too much again?
It does not seem so. Haiz..... Why why why???? On the work front, finally asked for transfer and requested to my big boss where I prefer to be posted to if there is a vacancy. Being a decisive person for anything in my life and being the confident person and happy-go-lucky guy, it is just only one aspect of my life that has been seeping all the confidence in me: love and BGR.
I am a TOTAL FAILURE in this aspect of my life. How many people can boast of a record that is worse than me? Tried, failed and waited for 8 whole years of my life for a girl but nothing came out of it. Totally given up on my emotions and wait for her not too long ago finally after a see-saw merry-go-round telling my friends the "I give up" and U-turning again time and again.
Came pretty close to a relationship pretty much twice in my life but then it just did not work out and both times were with the same girl. COMPLETE FAILURE.
Been feeling down to the point of depression and I think I am in the path to depression already, feeling this way for a month.
WHERE ARE MY FRIENDS WHEN I NEED YOU ALL TO SHOW ME CONCERN??!!!!
Where is Brandon, Yong Jian, Imran, Xinyi, NYC, GP, Shi Chang? Now is the the most down period of my time but all I get the stuff from guy and female friends alike nowadays is just smses to show concern. Is it that you all think I am made of steel and can recover on my own? "Dun think so much" is the answer I got from you all. THANKS!!! I now know that I am such irritating and needy person.
Maybe I should just DISAPPEAR from you all the lives, so that it is MUCH EASIER. Thank you.
Things are the same in my family, being normal and nothing much of any changes. For the office, though my best closest colleague cum friend has assured me when I sent her sms a few nights ago that she was not avoiding me, but, from the way she did not reply to my sms normally and do not pick up my calls when I called her, it just seems contradicting. Am I thinking too much again?
It does not seem so. Haiz..... Why why why???? On the work front, finally asked for transfer and requested to my big boss where I prefer to be posted to if there is a vacancy. Being a decisive person for anything in my life and being the confident person and happy-go-lucky guy, it is just only one aspect of my life that has been seeping all the confidence in me: love and BGR.
I am a TOTAL FAILURE in this aspect of my life. How many people can boast of a record that is worse than me? Tried, failed and waited for 8 whole years of my life for a girl but nothing came out of it. Totally given up on my emotions and wait for her not too long ago finally after a see-saw merry-go-round telling my friends the "I give up" and U-turning again time and again.
Came pretty close to a relationship pretty much twice in my life but then it just did not work out and both times were with the same girl. COMPLETE FAILURE.
Been feeling down to the point of depression and I think I am in the path to depression already, feeling this way for a month.
WHERE ARE MY FRIENDS WHEN I NEED YOU ALL TO SHOW ME CONCERN??!!!!
Where is Brandon, Yong Jian, Imran, Xinyi, NYC, GP, Shi Chang? Now is the the most down period of my time but all I get the stuff from guy and female friends alike nowadays is just smses to show concern. Is it that you all think I am made of steel and can recover on my own? "Dun think so much" is the answer I got from you all. THANKS!!! I now know that I am such irritating and needy person.
Maybe I should just DISAPPEAR from you all the lives, so that it is MUCH EASIER. Thank you.
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